Burnt Out At 19

  • Published: 18 May 2018
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Comments • 8 590

  • Lady D
    Lady D  5 days back

    CMN4566 got me here

    • maghan kirby
      maghan kirby  2 weeks back


      • KT Custer
        KT Custer  4 weeks back

        Lmfao same girl

        • cheryl mia carbajal valdivia

          I Left everything I had to follow my dreams, moved to another city and started studying music , it was everything i ever wanted, everything was fine, but I felt exactly like her...

          • saujanna ganguly
            saujanna ganguly  1 months back

            Your video made me feel better

            • jim maurice
              jim maurice  2 months back

              You know deep inside of you, as a human being, when you are doing wrong, doing fake.

              • _shadow_
                _shadow_  2 months back

                My friends go through hard times and we literally are always online Incase we need to help

                • Molly’s Vlogs
                  Molly’s Vlogs  2 months back

                  This inspired me.

                  • kiwi Family in aus
                    kiwi Family in aus  2 months back

                    Your editing skills are so amazing. That ending had me shook

                    • Aria Kasa
                      Aria Kasa  2 months back

                      The issue is context, unfortunately when you have everything especially in priviledged countries like Canada, things work like clockwork. Things are secure for a lot of us. Work, eat, workout, sleep. I grew up in a civil war in Albania, there was no time to be sad, people were fighting to survive, to not get hit by a bullet on the way to work. There was purpose, and the purpose was not repetitive. There was a sense of mystery to life. We have created a life in priviledged countries that is just not realistic, expectations that are not realistic. I developed anxiety living here in Canada, going to school, going to work - which is pretty crazy. During my childhood in Albania, I looked forward to the next day, there was no anxiety, just excitement to have survived.

                      • kayla wiseman
                        kayla wiseman  2 months back

                        I love you so much Elle

                        • DJSbros
                          DJSbros  2 months back

                          I achieved my life long dream at 17....Then after doing it for 5 years i realized i hated it. Fucked up my sense of self real good.

                          • ash senpai
                            ash senpai  2 months back

                            WARNING CURSING XD we love you!

                            • Asena CcC
                              Asena CcC  2 months back

                              Idunno if it helps but we love and support you trough everything

                              • ien_ien
                                ien_ien  2 months back

                                this is a reminder to take care of yourself even now ❤️💜💙

                                • Sksk8ter
                                  Sksk8ter  2 months back

                                  The thing is, I don't label myself as having depression because I'm sure as he'll I dont, but one or two of my friends told me to do because of symptoms or whatever but I know I don't, I think I'm just sad 😂 but I feel happy when there are happy things going on except when I have a really hard day, but almost every single day I hate myself and tell my bad things, I'm never confident, I'm never positive, but what's funny is I tell people positive things when they're sad, I've started doing it less but for some reason I'm not positive to myself but I'm positive when others are sad, I'm just really empathetic, but not to myself, I don't like myself at all, I always feel like I'm never going to get anywhere in life and I'm just so sensitive that even a simple comment meant for a joke can hurt me a lot, I always feel like I have to say sorry because I always tell myself everything bad in life is my fault, and that im just a bad person, I deny compliments a lot. I don't know what's going on. And I'm not fighting my sadness anymore. I gave up being positive to myself. I'm not going to try anymore because I've already tried to be positive so many times and it hasn't worked. I'm sorry if I sound edgy or just a big baby who's a clout chaser, like I said, I will never say I have depression unless I know I do, but I'm pretty sure it's nothing and I'm just sad. But i fell like even if I fight it or not and give up, then when I grow up this sad hateful feeling for myself will just fade away and it's just phase and that I'll grow out of it no matter what I do. It's just a stage and out of nowhere bam, I'll start getting better, so right now I'm not I'm just gonna get sad and start hating myself, get over it, get sad and hateful, like a cycle, until I grow up, so uh is that normal?

                                  • Chucha Soso
                                    Chucha Soso  2 months back

                                    I love you !

                                    • Simi Russell
                                      Simi Russell  2 months back

                                      Thank you... i just found your channel today, but youve got me sobbing and laughing because for the first time i dont feel so alone.

                                      • MemeツGachaツ
                                        MemeツGachaツ  3 months back

                                        We love you

                                        • Brittany DeeAnn
                                          Brittany DeeAnn  3 months back

                                          I hope you are doing better.

                                          • sup I'm le human
                                            sup I'm le human  3 months back

                                            Why are so many people being mean to her...what if your friends literally make fun of you and bully you when you have a really serious problem

                                            • Hailey Morrison
                                              Hailey Morrison  3 months back

                                              Elle.....just where Rollerskates to escape your feelings🥑🥑🥑❤️❤️❤️

                                              • Perry Crozier
                                                Perry Crozier  3 months back

                                                Burnt out at 19 ?? I really feel sorry for u. If I had $20.00 in my pocket at age 19, I felt like millionaire.

                                                • Katharina Johnson
                                                  Katharina Johnson  3 months back

                                                  Ok, ok, I get it, it's steriotypical. But seriously, you need Jesus. Yes, you have fame, yes, you have money. But do you have love? Not romantic love, or family love, or even love from 1.7 million fans. Everlasting love, love that has no limits, no faults. Love that will continue no matter how many times you screw up or fail, no matter how many times you give up on it. Because even if you give up on God, He will never, *ever* give up on you.

                                                  Ps, I love your channel, and I recently came across your videos a couple months ago. I haven't been here the whole time, and I obviously don't know you personally, but I'm praying for you. You have so much talent and power, so I really hope that God can use that for good :)

                                                  • Duhnelskie
                                                    Duhnelskie  3 months back

                                                    This is netflix quality content

                                                    • Courtney Catastrophe
                                                      Courtney Catastrophe  3 months back

                                                      Well that decides it I guess. I’m going to start therapy. It’s time that I stop just existing and start living my life again. I shouldn’t have to run off to my sisters every other day so that I don’t feel crushing sadness or have a panic attack that’s not fair to either of us. ♥️

                                                      • Holly 101
                                                        Holly 101  3 months back

                                                        Hey Elle you're 1000% made up of awesomeness, kindness, sweetness, intelligence and other amazing things. You're smart, sassy, badass and don't say it isn't true.

                                                        Yes those are just words. But those few words are very much the truth. I know something inside you is telling you that what I'm writing is false and or inaccurate but I know I'm right.

                                                        Remind yourself of this as much as you can. Because you know deel down it's the truth.

                                                        And we all love you

                                                        Signed a dipshit called Holly 💙

                                                        • Flor Saldaña
                                                          Flor Saldaña  3 months back

                                                          WOW!!!! Wish more youngsters looked at this.... Chin up you got this!!!!

                                                          • natalie ha
                                                            natalie ha  4 months back

                                                            Please don't end your YouTube channel I really like how you and your brother mess around together and we love you❤️❤️
                                                            Me when you leave😭😭

                                                            • Kristel Quezada
                                                              Kristel Quezada  4 months back

                                                              I binge watch all day your vids and I actually avoided this one coz I know I’ll cry. But hey, just keep doing what you love and even if this is not enough just know you got us your fans your back anytime. Thank you for making me laugh and cry with all your vids. You’re the best Elle!

                                                              • Bo Quinn
                                                                Bo Quinn  4 months back

                                                                I get it, sometimes looks can be deceiving. Just cause you have all these fans and friends and family, doesn’t mean your okay. I mean most people question the validity of my happiness cause my friend count has been zero for years, but I am genuinely happy xD lol

                                                                • Winter 248
                                                                  Winter 248  4 months back

                                                                  I'm crying alot right now 😭😭, I just found your channel and I really love this channel. I really hope your ok, I struggle with the same things. One more thing, *it will get better* trust me ,it does. Love your vids and you ❤❤

                                                                  • Jazmin Anderson
                                                                    Jazmin Anderson  4 months back

                                                                    I've only recently come across your channel and I love you so much! You're such an awesome person, open and caring person. I am dealing with my own anxiety and depression and you've helped me out a lot with cheering me up and showing me I'm not alone. You are brilliant and I hope now you feel happier and coping better with it all. Thank you for being here and being a beautiful human being 💖

                                                                    • Lyra Winterwoods
                                                                      Lyra Winterwoods  4 months back

                                                                      I sometimes hate watching these types of videos. But I watch anyway. Being an empathic person sucks, but helps make us know people better.

                                                                      • Annalena Ring
                                                                        Annalena Ring  4 months back

                                                                        Dear Elle, thank you, for being honest and open about it. There are so many people out there, suffering from depression, may it be caused by a burn out oder something else, and talking about it is so necessary. I'm also ,kind of, at the point where you are and most of the times all I wish is a place where nobody can want anything from you. Its just you, maby some people you love and you just are, without any expectations from anywhere. And social media put us in the exact opposite place. Were constantly connected and we gotta answer this or that person. So if I already struggle with that, without being on social media, you must feel even more of that pressure. Theres just one last thing. Never give up. I hung this sentece next to my bed to remind myself, no matter how shitty and senseless it all might seem right now, don't give up, because you live and that's good, and even if you dont need yourself, there are friends or family members (such as you little brother;)) that need you and it would be very very hurtful to them, if you ever gave up your own life. But I hope, you're not at this point right now, or many times in your life. Have a nice day, and greetings from germany. Anna. :)

                                                                        • laya
                                                                          laya  4 months back

                                                                          this video is honestly so beautiful, but i’m just wondering.. WHY ANUT ANYONE TALKIN ABOUT THAT ENDING?>:(

                                                                          • Eternal Ephemeros
                                                                            Eternal Ephemeros  4 months back

                                                                            damn, somehow I didn’t cry until the last music video portion. I guess i was just happy that Elle is finding her own way out of this shithole. Love ur videos. I’m a fan

                                                                            • Domen Dolinar
                                                                              Domen Dolinar  4 months back

                                                                              COPYRIGHT STRIIIIIKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

                                                                              • Megan Grace
                                                                                Megan Grace  4 months back

                                                                                I love Elle so much x

                                                                                • Oussama Fedl
                                                                                  Oussama Fedl  4 months back


                                                                                  • Barbi 101
                                                                                    Barbi 101  4 months back

                                                                                    You are the only youtuber who makes me laugh and smile when I'm sad.. I have anxiety and I was depressed so I kinda know what you are going through. But hey.. Keep your head up.. Work on yourself.. You are important💓💓

                                                                                    • Nikola Dorina
                                                                                      Nikola Dorina  4 months back

                                                                                      I AM CRYING! It's gonna sound really stupid but I feel like I have grown up with Elle because whenever I really needed to smile or just get away from anything happening in life I could always turn to her channel and rewatch her videos and still produce the same reaction each time. I want to say thank you to Elle for opening up about this subject because it is something that most people are scared to talk about. I for one, was terrified of even telling my family that I was a bit sad let alone that I was in my own mental prison. I wish her all the best(even though she won't see this) and I wanted to let her know that she has helped me out a lot :)

                                                                                      • Rachel Colby
                                                                                        Rachel Colby  4 months back

                                                                                        Why are you even popular?

                                                                                        • Billie eyelash
                                                                                          Billie eyelash  4 months back


                                                                                          • Moon Child
                                                                                            Moon Child  4 months back

                                                                                            I did talk to someone and I got yelled at.

                                                                                            • Mary Denise
                                                                                              Mary Denise  4 months back

                                                                                              that ending where she was speaking and crying hit me so hard omg ..

                                                                                              • Hi Hello
                                                                                                Hi Hello  4 months back

                                                                                                She’s only 19 but her mind is older :/

                                                                                                • Elisa Castro
                                                                                                  Elisa Castro  4 months back

                                                                                                  She's just as sporadic and immature as any other 19 year old.

                                                                                                • h e y
                                                                                                  h e y  4 months back

                                                                                                  20 now.

                                                                                              • annie boo
                                                                                                annie boo  4 months back

                                                                                                im crying